April 19, 2012

"Hey I heard you were a wild one...." -Flo Rida

if you count the years that i've learned how to read, a greater number of those years were spent hating reading. back in the days i cringe at the idea of putting "READING"  under "hobbies" on those famous autographs my friends and i used to go crazy over. i was never a reader. but somehow today, i wish i were. 
when i got into medschool, reading was forced into my system, it was imposed on me like sunscreen on a hot summer day. i was left with no choice, but to develop the habit of reading. and im glad i did.
today i wish i had been reading more as a child, so that my vocabulary would have been wider. 
my point here is not about reading per se, its about the complexity of things that i want to say / write but couldn't put into writing because i would easily be at a loss for words. 
but if i had been reading more, then i would know all the right words to say, perhaps, definitely, maybe. but nobody ever knows the right words...

but im not making sense now.... so im going to stop for a while, reconstruct my thoughts... and maybe on the next entry i can slowly start to write what my mind wants me to write.

the photo above was taken by me a few years back while i was riding the "Flying Fiesta" in one of the amusement parks in Luzon where you get to sit down on one of those hanging chairs and as the machine turns faster you are being thrown further away from the center. Life is often like the ""Flying Fiesta".... the faster you go, the further you get from what really matters...


April 7, 2012

"I was living for a dream, loving for a moment; Taking on the world, that was just my style." -Survivor

It was in the middle of my radiation therapy last year when it all stared. I was bored out of my wits and was out of the chemo rut when my wonderful elder sister invited me one night to attend a "Toastmasters" meeting as a guest and see what this organization is all about. I went and decided to join the club.  

Seeing it all back, i believe it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. :)

I've been a member for almost 5 months now and I have not only established new friendship but have also learned numerous things about other members. Things which do not only belong to my memory but are also applicable to how I live and perceive life. The club has taught me to never stop believing in positive things. Every club meeting is a positive experience in itself. Whether one is delivering a speech, evaluating it or simply being a grammarian, excitement fills the air more so than nervousness.

Public speaking is probably one's worst nightmare. It is a challenge never dared by many. Certainly, one would rather choose to "die" than speak in public. But the fear of public speaking is similar to the fear of drowning when one does not know how to swim. It can never be overcome unless you choose to learn.
i made a choice and look at what it has brought me:

with D75 Gov Vic Navales

the champs. ahem

with our mentor, Nic2x (far left)


April 3, 2012

"in the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly and dreams of para...para...PARADISE!" - Coldplay

It all started as a crazy idea no one knew was possible. Two friends exchanging messages on SMS feeling bored about the “routine” that is their lives. We both needed a “breather”... and what better way to get it than a short plane ride and a change of venue.
Destination::: Palawan.
 Will we ever get there? We found it impossible to believe at first. But the first step which showed determination and commitment was buying airline tickets, non-refundable, non-transferrable! haha   What we needed was an itinerary. Being fond of travelling, I happily volunteered to arrange our trip from shuttle transfers to hotel accommodation to island hopping tours. A month and a few days after, we were on a plane Palawan-bound! An hour after, we landed at the beautiful place we call “Almost Paradise”.

the hidden lagoon

My life has been a smorgasbord of events, filled with all kinds of flavours; sweet, salty, sour, and sometimes all bitter. Travelling gives me a great  sense of satiety that i wouldn’t even care if my accommodation is good, if the ride is okay or if the food is affordable. The mere experience of travelling fills me up like a whole bucket of fried chicken; sarap to the bones!  Perhaps it is the anticipation of getting somewhere that perks me up, that wonderful feeling of “expecting for the unknown”.

El Nido could be my home. I could live there. I found peace and serenity when i woke up the next day after a whole day’s travel and this was what greeted me:

I believe that the World, despite the ease and convenience technology has offered to make it seem small, is STILL a very BIG place. And i believe that life is too short to be lived by “routines”. I’m going to devote my time to travel, explore, see the world. I’ll drag my feet anywhere that my heart desires. Would you like to come?


April 2, 2012

"You're holding her hand, you're straining for words. You're trying to make sense of it all." - Casting Crowns

 chilling after a class :)

I’d be lying if i told you that nothing has happened in my life significant enough to be put in words. To tell you frankly, a gazillion things have transpired and i have no idea where to begin. Happiness has filled my days and melancholy has left my system. I will attempt to recall everything chronologically but in separate blog entries so as to maintain some order but if you get lost along my narration just bear with me.

I never meant to abandon my blog, but i do feel guilty for merely using it last year to fill up my time while being on house-arrest. This blog has been a big part of my “coping” experience and i got more determined to write when i learned that somehow i was inspiring others. 

So now it burdens me to think that not only have i abandoned my blog, i have also left my readers hanging. I don’t expect you to be checking the blog regularly but i would like to believe that perhaps just one person might be needing a little inspiration and the un-updated blog has failed to provide it.

So, it’s make-up time. 

My 5-month teaching stint has ended about 2 weeks ago with the FINAL exams. Its amazing how incredibly fast time flies. The experience has allowed me to develop my skills in speaking. I never knew i would have the patience to be talking in front of more than 50 students DAILY for an hour and still come out of it sane and calm. I thought i would morph into the “teachers” i’ve known before; snobbish, grumpy and a migraineur. On the contrary, i am proud to proclaim that i have come out of it a better speaker, a better listener and one with a fulfilled heart. Perhaps a contributing factor is my strong desire to “TEACH”...  so like i’ve said before in a previous post and what i usually say to my colleagues and fellow doctors, if you have the opportunity to teach, grab it! It will surprise you in more ways than one. Trust me.


more stories to come sooooon.... 

and here's a sneak preview:

little woman conquers big crowd ... heheheh

because the WORLD is still a very BIG place!